It’s just something I do, I need to.
I can’t handle it all, while showing my face and speaking my mind.
Not all at once, a day is not enough, and a lifetime certainly isn’t.
I need to travel inwards, and bring the treasures from the dark places I visit. It’s how I print my soul into this world, it’s how I shape chaos into beauty, so that you can smile.
Because I want you to smile, my heart longs for your relief, for your peace, for your inner light to become a beacon of hope, grace, and love.
So, I disappear.
And when I do, I remember why I do this and it fills me with courage, to uncover the veil that hides the dreadful shadows.
You see, my morning’s gone now and sunrise is but a distant memory,
with it, the raging fire gave way to a quiet rain
that’s much smoother as it shapes a creek,
but the longer it falls, the more abundant the waters,
until it’s irrigating the forests and giving life to the thirsty animals
and the lonely wanderers.
It’s a river now, a river that brings with it the inevitable life,
the light that imposes itself without violence, in a quiet beam.
I disappear, but I will always return,
until the day I won’t because the work is done
and so, my evening comes.
On that day, take all of my treasures and share them,
build a home for the broken,
and remember me, not by my wounds,
but by the honest love that blossomed from my pain
for I always disappear
but we will meet again.
Josué V. – 09/20/2022